My friend, a fellow triplet mom, is training for a marathon. I think she’s crazy, but not for the obvious reason, that being running for 26 miles. I think she’s crazy for letting the world watch her train to run 26 miles, which she’s doing through her blog as she raises money for cancer research. Now, I am as sporty as the next girl, mind you, but when it comes to revealing the physical and mental anguish of training for something as extreme as a twenty-six mile jog (especially after your circulatory system has been mangled by a triplet pregnancy, as her has), I tend to fall back on fiction, myself. Take, for example, this scene from my novel BIG MOUTH. While the scene is not autobiographical in the strictest sense of the word, one could convincingly argued that if you gave Shermie a sex change and aged him by a couple of decades, he would be me trying to jog:
Everything looked better in morning sunlight. Or at least it was supposed to. This morning, I wasn’t so sure about that. The sun was only just rising, and Gardo had me on my porch at the buttcrack of dawn on a Sunday morning in shorts, thermal long johns, pants, sweats, snow pants, undershirt, T-shirt, sweater, scarf, ski cap, hoodie (with my hood up!), gloves, and plastic wrap around my stomach and thighs. The garden thermometer next to the porch said 79 degrees. I swear, Gardo had flipped.
But he was the coach, and what the coach says goes. Which, in this case, was me: I was going for the very first jog of my life.
Though it was early and I was bundled up like it was the Arctic winter, I was actually feeling okay about the upcoming jog. The relief of last night’s reversal of fortune was huge, so I wasn’t suffering any after effects from my hot dog capacity training session. Puking will do that for a guy.
“Ready?” Gardo asked. He was alternating between jumping jacks and jogging in place.
I was done rolling my shoulders and squatting, so, yeah, I was ready. “Now or never. Let’s pound the pavement, Coach.”
“Alright, then. Giddy up!”
We took off at a gallop. The sun was rising in front of us, and the moon was falling behind. There was a slight crispness in the breeze that brushed my cheeks. My heart was pump, pump, pumping the blood through my body, and my legs muscles were stretching and getting juiced by the workout. Already, I could picture myself racing up the steps of the library at Palm and 13th, Rocky-style. I got the eye of the tiger, baby.
I focused on breathing in, out, in, out. Gardo was next to me, playfully pulling forward and dropping back, pulling forward and dropping back. I kind of liked this, the two of us out here bonding, doing athlete stuff, while the rest of the world slept. It was a whole new side of our friendship.
The first block was all downhill. It wasn’t steep, just a slight decline, but it was nice to have gravity working in my favor for the opening strides. I was feeling good, loose and lean. This jogging stuff wasn’t so bad.
“You want to speed it up there, Seabiscuit?” Gardo shouted. “My granny walks faster than that. Move it, move it!”
Jeez, I didn’t know I was running with Coach Hunt. I picked up the pace. My breathing picked up the pace, too. And my heart went from pump, pump, pumping to pound, pound, pounding.
“Much better,” Gardo said. “Granny would have to be in her wheelchair now to catch you.”
I flipped him the bird. I would’ve told him to stuff it, but since I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t talk.
The plastic wrap around my belly started slip-sliding with sweat, and wet beads dripped down my lower back, under the plastic, feeling like an army of ants. My left calf twitched threateningly.
Gardo consulted the pedometer clipped to his waistband. “.3 miles down, 1.7 to go. C’mon, Shermie, pick up those knees, find your rhythm.”
I’ll show you rhythm…
A beat-up truck zoomed by, kicking up a cloud of dust. A beer bottle flew out the passenger window and exploded on the asphalt. Glass bounced off my shin. Jeez! If I hadn’t had on twenty layers of clothing, that shard might’ve sliced an artery. What a lovely way to start a Sunday morning. Whose brilliant idea was this jog?
“When we’re done,” Gardo said, dropping back next to me again, “we’ll have some pickles and a refreshing Gardo Glass of agua.” He wasn’t even breathing hard. “How does that sound?”
“Lovely,” I got out between breaths.
Did Gardo know I was scheduled for water training today? I wracked my brain, but I couldn’t remember telling him. He was so hard-line on the Gardo Glasses, he might nix that part of my training. Well, I just wouldn’t tell him, that was all. I couldn’t risk it. Anyway, what was a little water in my belly going to hurt him? He’d let me have hot dogs last night because they were part of my training, and water expansion was just as vital. I had a graph from Lucy to prove it.
The miserable army of sweat ants had now spread from my back to my front, and the skin under the plastic wrap around my belly and thighs was stinging and hot, like when a too-tight shoe rubbed my heel. My head might as well have been in an oven instead of that ski hat and hood. No heat was escaping through my head today. Making things even rosier, the downhill slope was leveling out, so I was losing gravity as a running partner. People do this for fun?
Gardo dropped back next to me again. “How you doing, Shermie? You’re looking kind of tired.”
Then why the heck are you asking? “Fine.” I didn’t want him thinking I was a puss.
“Okay. . .”
We jogged a few more feet.
“You know,” he said, “you could walk.”
You know, I could stop. “I’m . . . fine.”
“There’s nothing wrong with walking. My mom walks every day.”
He might as well have told me to start carrying a purse. “She’s a girl.”
“True.” A few more feet, then, “She says walking is better for you than jogging. Less pounding on the knees and spine, same weight burn. But you have to walk fast enough. It just takes more time, that’s all.”
“Then you walk.”
“Can’t. Coach Hunt would have a cow.” He pulled ahead again, leaving me to my misery.
I wished I could walk. Especially if it was just the same or better than jogging. Jogging sucked. But walking was for girls, and that was just the way of it. Rocky didn’t walk. Hulk Hogan probably didn’t walk. They were champions, and I was going to be a champion, too. So Thuff Enuff wouldn’t walk. Period.
We jogged around the corner of Palm onto 13th. That was when I remembered that 13th Street was uphill. Steep uphill. What genius put a library at the top of a hill? Didn’t they know kids had to ride their bikes to the library? Didn’t they know old people walked to the library? Didn’t they know crazy wrestlers made their poor friends jog to the library?
I tucked my head down and pumped my arms harder. My heart pounded in my ears and my breath came in gasps.
“C’mon, Shermie, one foot in front of the other, same as on the downhill. You can do it! You just have to think you can.”
I think I can, I think I can, I think I can . . .
Who was I fooling? I couldn’t jog up this hill. I’d die before I got halfway. I was just sorry Gardo would witness my Walk of Shame.
I slowed down to a walk and,
“Ow!” I collapsed to the sidewalk, clutching my left calf, the plastic digging into my belly flesh.
“What? What happened?” Gardo stooped over me helplessly. “Are you okay?”
“Calf!” I was wincing hard, barely holding back tears. The muscle was locked so tight that my foot flexed backward, my toes trying to curl under, even inside my shoes. It couldn’t have hurt worse if I’d squeezed it in a vice.
Then it locked down even harder.
“Owww!” My tears rolled free.
“Rub it, Shermie, rub it.” Gardo dropped to his knees and started kneading my calf.
“Ow! Stop!” I shoved his hands away and rubbed it myself, furiously, with both hands. Stupid Gardo for making me jog. It’s my first time ever, we should’ve walked. Walking’s just as good or better than jogging, his own mom said so. Some friend!
He was right about the rubbing, though. It was helping my cramp loosen up. As lame as I felt doing it, I kept at it, all the while willing my aching, sweaty, wheezing, pathetic body to relax. But it was slow in cooperating. At least I was able to stop crying. My breath was still gaspy, but it was settling down as the cramp faded, and my pounding heart was slowing to a solid pump, pump again. The plastic wrap slid as I shifted around.
Gardo still kneeled next to me. “Any better?”
“Good. That’s the best thing.” He sat back on his heels. “I had a calf cramp once. It hurt worse than when I broke my arm.”
“Thanks for sharing that.”
“Cranking at me won’t help. It’s just bad luck, that’s all. Don’t sweat it. You’re an athlete now, things happen.”
He patted me on the back.
So, there you have it. If we were to take this scene from my novel as being autobiographical (and I in no way actually admit that it is, no no, uh-uh), you would know that while I will cheerily punch my fist through wood or let 300-pound men fling me over their shoulders in a martial arts class, the mere thought of jogging brings tears to my eyes and drops me to my knees. Yet here is my friend, telling her story of struggling to run a marathon via the reality show that is a blog. She is braver than I. And what a story hers is to witness: feet that fall asleep after two miles, going for jogs but forgetting she’s wearing her bike helmet, chocolate treats calling her home as she drives to team training sessions, renewed pledges to finish this race for the sake of the loved ones she’s lost to cancer… Yowza. Sounds like a human trying to do a superhuman thing. The finale of her tale is predictable, this woman will complete that marathon, either by running, walking, or sprawled semi-comatose in her triplet’s double BOB jogging stroller, I’m convinced of that, but it’s definitely a nail-biter along the way. I for one, will keep reading.
(And spreading the word of her efforts to raise money for cancer research. To find out more, check out www.TheAmazingTrips.com.)